Dagnabbit!

7 02 2011

Theo and I were both bald and beautiful on his first birthday, August 22, 2006


There was a whirring inside my head the night I found the lump — January 9, 2011.

Don and I were lying next to each other in bed, in the dark, on our backs, staring up at the ceiling.
Quiet.

A kaleidescope of images from my first breast cancer discovery and treatment in 2006 were spinning in my head. Bandanas and baseball caps. Wigs. Theo’s first birthday party — he and I were both bald. That brings a smile to my face. How cute is that?

Then, of all things, came this thought.

Dagnabbit! I’m going to lose my hair again! And I just grew it back!

Yes, I know. I was in treatment nearly five years ago. But my hair takes forever to grow.

I know. Of all the things to be worrying about.

But still.

It’s maddening.

Last time, chemo turned my hair from my lifelong natural blonde (yes, that was real all these years), to some unrecognizable, unsuitable dark black. Permanently.

I’d heard rumor of people who got curly hair post-chemo — forever curly hair. Beautiful ringlets. Spirals even. I was signed on for that, but didn’t get it.

I got black and straight. And now, dyed back to my once-natural blonde every 8 weeks.

When I shared this frustration with my friend and Theo’s pediatrician, Michelle Hicks, she said, “Girlfriend, on the other side of this, I’m going to pay for you to get hair extensions! The best!”

I said, “I am so there!”

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6 responses

7 02 2011
Kristi

What a beautiful family photo….bald an all! Great memories to hold dear to your heart while you fight this battle again. And this summer, Theo and Don can sport the shaved look to match you again!

7 02 2011
Molly MacDonald

Well fortunately, you are really beautiful without your hair. You have a lovely shaped head and many women are not so fortunate when they lose their hair; and I have just the baseball cap for you. . . Will mail one out today . . . .

7 02 2011
Sherri Novis

I LOVE this picture. Just beautiful….

7 02 2011
Mary Goedert

All I am seeing in the picture is love……

7 02 2011
Karen

you make a beautiful bald girl – whoohoo

11 02 2011
Michelle Hicks

OMG… that seemed like a lifetime ago! You are the most gorgeous women I know with or without hair! Can’t wait till it’s time for your hair extensions….we’ll have the ultimate girls spa day!! Love you!!!

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