Time only makes me miss you more!

6 05 2014

To Amy with love from your husband Don


They say things get better with time. I really don’t believe that. I spend my days thinking you weren’t done. You had so much more to do here. Teaching Theo all the great things in the world, your books that you had done in your mind but had not yet put them on paper and the plans we had for our future. Time only makes me miss you that much more. That’s what time does. 730 days without you. It’s not fair. You visit all your loved ones as a cardinal. I look but I don’t see you. I see you in my dreams all the time and you are carrying on as if you never left and I can’t believe you are back. I never get to ask what now, what do I do now! I’m in survival mode.  This isn’t living because being with you was living. I’m in the fast lane for sure. I can’t feel anymore. There is no emotion but sadness. I try to be happy but you made me happy, you gave me purpose.

Theo has been talking a lot about you the last month or so.  He loves asking me about how you would do some things. And usually when he is asking that question he is doing or saying something exactly how you would of. All I can do at that point is smile and tell him how much I love him and how much you loved him. I hope you come to him in his dreams as well and give him guidance. He is doing very well in school and hockey.  You would be a proud mom as I am a proud dad.

I’m not ready to let you go. I can’t, I won’t. I miss you every day.

I will always love you,


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Carri Carr DeMaggio Benefit and Memorial Fund

26 03 2014

Sadly another mom, wife, daughter and more is gone too soon. Carri Carr DeMaggio earned her angel wings March 16, 2014. We know in our hearts, that Amy Rauch Neilson welcomed her with open arms. Don and Theo have come to know the family but not as you would think. Not through BFC but through hockey. Theo and Carri’s son play on the same hockey team and Don over heard him say his mommy has cancer and so did Theo’s. The boys started a friendship as did Don with her husband Mike.

Please join us this Saturday for a benefit for Carri’s family. If you can’t make it, please consider donating via Paypal or the link below. Thank you.

The DeMaggio family lost their loving mother and wife to a hard fought battle with cancer on March 16th. Please join us on March 29th to support Carri’s 3 surviving children and loving husband, Mike. The DeMaggio family is strongly integrated in hockey and figure skating. Please join us on the ice to show your support as “Extended Family on Ice…..”

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DeMaggio Family Open Skate Benefit
Canton Arctic Edge
46615 Michigan Ave, Canton, MI 48188
March 29, 2014
2:00pm – 4:00pm

Everyone is invited!
Tell your friends, family, and neighbors!
$5 Admission (free skate rental)
Power Aid and snacks for participants
*50/50 Raffle
*Silent Auction (Sports tickets, such as Tiger Game Tickets 4/2 and 7/9, Detroit Red Wing Tickets 4/4, Signed U of M Hockey Stick by Coach Red Berenson, Signed Hockey Stick by Zetterburg, more signed memorabilia, golf stuff and so much more!)
Come show your support, have fun, and get some great exercise

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DeMaggio Benefit – Paypal Account


To know Carri was to love her. She was a beautiful woman with a strong and vivacious spirit. She loved life, her family, and her many friends. Carri was a fighter. She fought the grief of the loss of her mother at only six years of age, and she fought to completely free herself from an abusive first marriage.When she was diagnosed with cancer over seven years ago, Carri took the news in stride and prepared for a fight. Having lost her mother way too early, Carri was acutely aware of how cancer could ravage a family, and she vowed to not go silently. Surpassing all predictions made by doctors over the years, she fought until the end. Through the years, Carri’s love and strength were there for those she loved and she was an inspiration.Carri’s battle came to an end on March 16, 2014 while at home with her family. Carri is survived by her loving husband Michael, her beautiful children Cheyanne, Tyler, and Dominic, and her devoted parents Phillip and Janet.Carri worked very hard over the last seven years to make every day with her family count. When she felt well, she planned trips to New York, California, and the Narnia in Michigan’s Upper Peninsula. She made memories with her children and husband that will last a lifetime. As Michael told Jeni on her last trip to Michigan, “she trained me for this job”. And we all know that perhaps the best decision Carri ever made was to marry “St. Michael” who is a wonderful father to their children.Carri was only 37 years old when she was diagnosed and they (like so many young families) didn’t have a big life insurance policy in place. That is really what prompted us to start this fundraiser to help ease some of the financial worries for the family.Michael asked that Jeni and Jeff Deutsch administer this fund for the family as they take time to grieve this enourmous loss. Jeni is Carri’s cousin from California. As one of Carri’s closest relatives in age, Jeni and Carri became very close as children (more like sisters). This bond would last a lifetime. Jeni is so grateful to have had a few days with Carri in early March. The family wishes to thank everyone who visited Carri and offered support in so many ways. The family and friends of Carri Carr DeMaggio are uniting to support her family as they prepare to celebrate Carri’s life. – See more at: http://www.youcaring.com/memorial-fundraiser/carri-carr-demaggio-memorial-fund/151807#sthash.I3kZtj5V.dpuf

Thank you for your prayers and support!
On behalf of Don, Theo, our Angel Amy and the DeMaggio Family

Merry Christmas from Heaven 12-25-2013

25 12 2013

HO, HO, HO… MERRY CHRISTMAS!  You know how much I love this time of year and although I can’t be with you in body, I am with you in spirit and love.  God had a bigger plan for me and while I miss you all so much, I want more than anything for you to be happy and carry on your family traditions as I know Don and Theo have.   Don is an AMYAZING dad and I told God thank you for helping me find such a wonderful man to raise our THEODORABLE!  I can’t believe how big my little Theo is getting.  He’s turning into a fantastic hockey player and can put Lego’s together following the directions that most grown men can’t do!  They sure are a handsome duo!  Enjoy your family and friends and give them all a special “Amy hug”!  I miss you all so much!  With lots of love from heaven above, Amy.  Keep on keepin on! xoxo  Merry Christmas!

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29 11 2013

Today is my birthday. Celebrate my life with you.  And remember the good times, not the bad. And Do not be sad; Look up towards the sun and catch every ray of light upon your cheek. For I am there with you.  Today is my birthday. Be happy for me . I lived short, but full.  I had the pleasure of love and the joy of my family. Do not be sad. Look up towards the stars and catch each twinkle in your heart. For I am there with you.

Today is another year that we remember our AMYAZING AMY and celebrate her special day sending love, hugs and wishes to her in Heaven.  Not a day goes by that someone, somewhere isn’t thinking of her and remembering all the joy and laughter she brought to each of us in her own loving and unique way.

Below is a picture of Amy sending off a lantern for her 43rd birthday.  It’s heart breaking to know that was her last birthday here with us and today, 11/29/13 we extend our love to her in Heaven.  Happy Birthday Amy!  You are missed more than you could ever imagine.

We love and miss you Amy!  Happy Birthday!

Amy sending off a pink lantern for her 43rd birthday! 11-29-11


17 10 2013

If Amy was here, she would be throwing the biggest surprise party ever for her wonderful husband Don for his 40th birthday today, 10/17/13!!  But if you know Amy, she’s celebrating for him big time with her friends and family above and sending down her love, huge hugs and her AMYAZING infectious smile!  There are no words to express how much Amy is still missed each and every day but so many of us carry a piece of her with us and there are so many signs that she continues to be a part of our daily lives.  So no tears today; we know Amy would want us to sing our hearts out to her husband Don and shine her light on his special day!





Love and hugs for a wonderful year ahead!!


Happy 40th Amy!



22 08 2013

For those that knew Amy, you know she loved her birthday.  And not just that day but she would celebrate for an entire week – her birthday week.  Well her son Theo is just like his mom!  He’s having a week of birthday fun!  A few days ago, he had dinner and ice cream with his Aunt Julie and Uncle Jim, Aunt Lisa and Uncle Dave and cousins Natalie and Blake.  He even woke up early the next day to put his new birthday gift together!

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Tonight on his 8th birthday, he will have hockey practice and I know Amy and her Dad will be watching him from above and cheering him on!

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His Birthday Fun will continue this weekend with Don, family and friends at ZAP ZONE!!  What 8yr old (or any age for that matter) doesn’t love it there!

HAPPY 8th Birthday Week THEO! 


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Happy 8th Birthday Theodore…with love from your mom!

I may not physically be there but I’m always near and in your heart.



Happy 14th Anniversary

4 07 2013

A beautiful Facebook post from Don to Amy  7/4/13

 Happy Anniversary. It has been 14 years since we said we do. One of the vows was till death do we part. Well, you are and always will be a part of me. I miss our life together, the way you had endless energy, but only for about 5 hours at a time. A quick nap and boom! Off and running! Your infectious laugh. The way you loved our son more then anything in this world. I love you and always will.

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Amy Rauch Neilson, It's in the Genes    Me and my hubby, enjoying a ride on our pontoon boat.


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